Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Having a bi moment

There was a funny thing that happened when The Hobbit came out on DVD. I was going to post about at the time, but didn't for some reason. Maybe because I'm not finding it the easiest post to write...it's not uncomfortable, just difficult to explain. Which is funny, because what I'm trying to say is simple.

My family hadn't seen the movie yet, and were asking me questions. Of course I told them about how it had been changed from the book, told them where it ended, and speculated where the second movie might end. Eventually mom randomly asked if there's anyone hot in it.

I had to stop and think about this question. Normally I'd expect the hero to be the hot one, but I'm sorry. Bilbo Baggins simply is not hot. And I hadn't really latched onto anyone as being particularly hot. (Unlike in Lord of the Rings. *cough* Legolas... *cough*) After a little bit of pondering I finally said "Well, I guess Galadriel is sort of hot..."

But here's the thing: I'd forgotten I was talking to someone that isn't into women.

It was sort of a jolt to me when mom pointed out she's only interested in men, maybe because this incident proved how much I had changed from the previous year.

A year ago I was still self conscious about being bisexual, and was a little uncomfortable with myself. I certainly wouldn't have casually suggested a female character as "the hot one" without being very aware that I was doing.

So even though this post is titled "Having a bi moment," and the incident I'm describing was only one brief moment in my life...it's really about more than that. I guess it shows that after so many years of denying my attraction to women, and having insisted to myself that I was only interested in men...I'm comfortable with myself now.


Debra She Who Seeks said...

That's great! And you're right, Galadriel IS hot!

Sarita Rucker said...

Not quite as hot as Legolas, but yes she is. :)

Or maybe I'm just saying that because I was a Legolas fan girl for so long...please don't judge me for my past. lol